Thru Her BrownEyes

Hello everyone, We'll it's been quite some time hasn't it. Blogging has been a past time for me for a few years now. I have enjoyed it as a outlet to all the madness I call "my life". So fret not I won't be straying from you again! That's right you have my word. Where to begin....well let's see. I changed my YouTube channel name. Why??? Many things in my life have caused me to stop and really look at my life and all involved in it, once I did that I was able to change my perspective. This new perspective has changed how I feel and which direction I am going in next. I have evolved from my past into something better; something new. So lets first tell you all that's gone down. First and foremost I have to mention my mother. She is a bipolar schizophrenic, yes there I finally said it. She has been this way all my life. But one day soon we will dive more into those waters. So anyway she had a breakdown as I like to call it and had to be hospitalized...

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As men age they become more set in their ways...which brings us to Rasheeda and Kirt: How triffling is he to tell his wife that she should get a abortion, and then to say she is a rapper and that means she could have cheated on him. Now it wasn't right for Rasheeda to go and pay $20,000 for a video shoot. I think she wanted to get back into the groove of work and work takes her mind off Kirt. Before she found out about the pregnancy she was not getting much attention from him, with his family member in the hospital. All their money was going towards the treatment and care of that person. So she may have gotten angry. Finding out about the preganancy was a shock she says, but Kirt's reaction was the real shocker. Then. He goes out and sleeps with not one but two women! That was more than "turnt up" as he decribes it. He kept saying he got a pass. No, I don't believe that for one minute. You are married, not dating! And how many women and how much time do you need...

So in this first episode we see Evelyn speaking out about what happened between her and Chad. She talks about finding a empty condon wrapper and questioning him. Now after watching Evelyn we all know she most likey cussed him and yelled at him. I would have to, I mean it hasn't even been 90 days into the marriage yet. She brought him into her family and created a relationship with her daughter and he. That's pretty big don't you think. Her daughter has had now 3 male figures in her life. If I were her daughter I would be confused and scared to get close to another man. So it seems that during the incident Chad headbutted Evelyn causing a 3inch gash on her forehead. I was shocked when I saw the photos which can be found on TMZ. She divorced Chad quickly, but says she's unsure of her decision. He reached out to her Mom, saying how sorry he was and that he wants his family back. Kinda late for that don't ya think. Later in the episode we see Evelyn talking to the girls...

Why is sex such a big part of dating? Seems like if you don't have sex with a guy he cheats or leaves you. Not to say that I have never enjoyed sex or lusted for someone, but why is it such a big part of a relationship. Lately I've been spending a lot more time alone and mediating on my life and my choices. This subject came to mind one day when I felt as if I had to have it or I was going to emotionally unravel. Why?? So I challenged myself to see how long I could go without it. Along the way I noticed how many people are focused on sex. I saw the real side of men, of which before now I never knew looked at me as a prize or trophy to put on their "did that" wall. When you tell someone you don't want their body in that way, you will be surprised at the reaction you get. I saw men at like babies, tell me they were sick of waiting on me (however they got the idea that I was waiting on them I don't know, or that I wanted that from them is still a mystery), thre...

One of my first relationships was one that lasted for 5 years. I know my first boyfriend, and we stuck it out that long. I was showered with gifts, thinking that was love. It was his expression of it for sure, but he didn't want the things I did. Near year 3 and 4 we had lost our common goal. He wanted to be with many women, not to be tied into a partnership. I wanted to be in control and demanded attention. Believe it or not that relationship ended in a "sorta" engagment. The day he brought me the ring he didn't do it in a romantic way. It was however unforgettable. He chucked it across the room yelling "here you wanna get married, fine!" And that was the end of that. There were a few men inbeween but none that really stuck out. A few I got along great with, and some who even my friends thought was the one. Turned out none of those were. The next big relationship was a chart topper. This guy every girl wanted. All my friends were jealous of me. He was char...

Time to get a little personal. So cheating is a touchy subject because someone always gets hurt. Its the kind of thing that you cant hide, it always seems to come out one way or another. They say once a cheater always a cheater. I don't believe that statement. That's like saying once a thief, always a thief...or anything else for that matter. Life is about growth and change and no matter how hard you try you will have to grow and change to survive. In my past I cheated. There I said it, kind of hard to admit but yes I did it. To be technical we were broken up, not living together, not speaking, the whole nine yards. That doesn't excuse it. My behaviour was immature and impulsive. You cannot find in another what is missing from your current partner. Ever heard of the 80/20 rule? That simply means your current partner is 80% and what you find in another person is 20%. It will feel as if the new person is the 80% and your current 20%, trust me it's quite the opp...

Over the past year I have been giving myself, my time and resources to other people. In a perfect world all of that would be fine and wonderful...but this world is far from perfect. Although you are expected to be just that. I have had to step back and watch, take a rearview look if you will. You see all of the people I have tried to help and support, were very much grateful for my assistance. They smiled and told me how much of a great help I had been to them. The problem is, that not many of them have returned the favor. I was left drained and alone. Angry and restentful. God wants us to help others even if it takes away from what we have, for the Lord will provide for us and our needs if we trust him. There was something that I forgot all about, myself. You cannot give to others if you have nothing to give. There were even times when I had only enough patience and time for myself and still I was bribed to give what was left. This didn't work, I kept what I had and left that ind...

Ok so if you havent seen Season One of LHHATL then here's a little bit of info to get you caught up. This is a reality show about a group of hip hop artisit and those that they are friends with in the industry or people they have/are dating. This show has been very popular on television. It has it all; drama, love, sex, money, power, not to mention cat fights! So lets begin to talk about Season 2... Lil Scrappy, Momma Dee, Erica and Shay: So Erica is the girlfriend of Lil Scrappy and the mother of his 8 year old daughter Emani. This couple has been on a "make up to break up" rollercoaster. This season the two got engaged. But this was short lived. After a family dinner with Momma Dee (Scrappy's mother) and Erica's mother things went ary. Erica was fuming when she felt that Scrappy did not stand up for her and their relationship. She wanted him to tell his mother to butt out of thier relationship; instead he felt that Momma Dee will be Momma Dee and Erica shou...

Have you ever been told to do something by your mother and you didn't do it? In fact, you did the exact opposite of what she asked just because "you can"...only to find out later that you just ruined your chance to get to see your favorite musical artist perform?! OR maybe she called off your surprise birthday party until your attitude adjusts. What you didn't know was that at that concert, or party you would have met someone who would have changed your life forever had you acted accordingly. Sometimes this happens to us in life but instead of it being mom who takes something wonderful away it's you yourself. God has many things in store for us but only IF we do things as he asks. If we create our own way we block blessings. You can change the course of things permanently with one small mistake. Ever hear of the "Butterfly Effect"? This is why it is so important to THINK (something I'm working on: as Steve Harvey says...He ain't thru with me ye...

I've prayed most if not all my life for the man of my dreams. Most girls do right? We dream of our wedding day while playing dress up, we use Ken and Barbie to represent how we hope to be one day. Well it wasn't until recently that I started praying to God for the man He has chosen for me, not the one I wish for. Gods blessings are always bigger than you can imagine. So His chosen man for me must be incredible! You see I prayed for the opposite of my last relationship. In my past relationship we spent all our time together. I can remember accepting overtime at work just so we would have less time together. We fought over everything. I got what I asked for...someone working, educated, and dedicated. Someone who doesn't spend every waking hour at my side. In the past few months God has spoken to me. Telling me to stay the course in relation to a perticular person in my life. This person I care for deeply, mesmerized by their ora. It has been and will continue to be a diffic...

I come from a very large family. I only have one brother but my extended family is huge. I love my family even though some times they may drive me crazy. They pick me up and carry me through my tough times, they make me laugh til I cry. They are special, every one in their own way and I love them with all my heart. I wish we kept in touch better than we do but the fact that we keep in touch and celebrate together is enough to make me happy. When I grew up I spent a lot of time with my cousin Ramona. I was young and my parents put us together so we could play (really so they could have adult time lol). Ramona is very unique to say the least. There is no one like her and there never will be. Out of everyone in the family she reminds me most of my late uncle jr. This was a guy you either loved or hated. Most loved him. She is so amusing, creative, loud, divalious, fabulous, short tempered, beautiful, bold...I could go on. This chick can make a grown man blush, there aren't many who c...

Hey everybody! I wanted to speak on this subject and find out how you guys feel. This is something I've had to face for at least the last ten years of my life. I myself do not have any children; nor do I have children in my life that I treat or love as my own. I grew up in a broken home, my parents divorced when I was very young. Each household i lived in both of my parents began to see other people. For me the experience was not good at all. At one house the female (step mom) thought and often reminded me that she should come first. She wanted quality time and money that I felt should belong to me. No one acted as if we were a family because we felt as if we weren't.I was his kid and she his girlfriend.  In the second house there was a lack of respect, but I always felt as if I were put first. I liked feeling this way. This home felt more like a family, but there was still a underling weird feeling surrounding all of it. As an adult I was very careful of who...